Broken Hearts and Misled Youths

Am I only worth the food court?

I guess I spoke too soon about not having any qualms with Boyfriend.
This past week has been increasingly difficult, not only physically but in terms of our relationship as well. I'm so used to seeing him all day every day, that not seeing him or sleeping with him is making me a little cranky. Ah, how I miss the days of summer. So, in light of all of the time we're NOT spending together, and how hard this hell week has been, Boyfriend offered to take me out to dinner tonight. (A little side-note here: I LOVE being wined and dined. I LOVE dressing up. I LOVE doing something out of our ordinary Lean Cuisine and Entourage marathon watching.) Naturally, I've been excited the entire day. Throughout both of my training sessions, all I could think about was "Just get through this, and have a nice evening out with some nice conversation and nice food with the nice man in your life."
Midday, I receive a text message from Boyfriend suggesting we catch a movie as well. He asks me to check the times (which for some strange reason annoys me,) and so I do. It's a movie I want to see too, so that's fine. After my second practice, I realize that I hate being rushed through a meal to make sure we have time for a movie, so I text Boyfriend asking if we could just eat downtown and skip the movie part. (And besides... You don't HAVE to dress up for a movie. It's dark in there! No one can see all of my beautiful work.) He replies, "I would rather just see the movie and eat dinner at home." And so, I am fuming. This seems like a small inconvenience, but the thing is, I've honestly been looking forward to this dinner date all damn day! I'm leaving in the morning to go home for the weekend, so I won't see him then either, and next weekend we have a team camping trip. I will not see him very much at all for the next MONTH or so. Which, to me, is an eternity. So I respond with a curt "fine." (period for emphasis on my anger.) to which he says "We can always go to the food court."
So at this point I'm crying because everything has just piled up and I'm so frustrated and then he has the audacity to suggest fast food. [yuck.] I didn't respond. I'm still kind of seething.
I know the only reason he wants to go to the movies instead of dinner is because it's cheaper. I HATE that about him. I deserve more, especially right now.
I'm so AGGRIVATED. I need a shower.

posted by Ambrielle @ 3:48 PM