Sometimes I wanna have a baby.
It's so weird. For the past couple of months, whenever I see a baby commercial or hear anything relatively involving babies, I get so excited. I've always known I wanted to be a mother... So why am I all of the sudden wishing that I had a baby growing inside of me?
Roomie A says that it's because I'm in a long-term relationship for the first time, and I'm a woman, so it's only natural. Roomie AM agreed; She's been with her boyfriend for about a year now and she says she's had the same feelings of maternity. This kind of scares me, because even the thought of pregnancy 8 months ago made me cringe. I wouldn't give it a second thought, an abortion would happen, and I would never look back. But now that I think of it..... I would probably still have an abortion, but it would be a difficult decision. Like I said, these are scary thoughts, and I'm not sure where they're coming from. I can honestly see myself spending the rest of my life with Boyfriend... But don't ALL females my age wish for that connection? Sometimes I think girls want so badly to have that eternal love guarantee, that they put guys on a pedestal and ignore the little things that could potentially be relationship-killers. I don't see any killers in my relationship with Boyfriend... I see happiness. Acceptance. However, I also see immaturity... In both of us. I don't know... Maybe that's why I feel this way about having a baby right now. It would force us into some sort of maturity that I wish would just come already, along with the fairy-tale wedding and the white-picket fence. Why am I so restless?
posted by Ambrielle @ 7:39 PM
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